pause

Mondays are becoming my pause.

Not the entire day. Just during part of it. I GET to adventure inward. Sometimes it feels good. Sometimes it doesn't. It's pretty interesting just to feel though... to really feel.

I've been watching this TV show titled "Alone." It's all about survivalists going out into the wild and attempting to be the last person standing for a cash prize. What I find fascinating is how many of them are confronted with feelings that bubble up to the surface... sometimes feelings they didn't even know they had.

With all the distractions and busyness stripped away, they are able to feel. 

Weeks, though they are only 7 days long, can be quite long and full sometimes. We cram so much into a day, and even over the course of 24 hours, it can be rather easy to get a bit lost. So 7 days can leave us feeling quite off course.

Maybe we all need a day to calibrate... to find our direction again. 

Maybe we need a day to feel what we otherwise push aside, ignore and sometimes bury.

What aren't you feeling? 
You know that question you get asked a million times a day but never truthfully answer, "How are you doing?" How is your job? How is school? How is your marriage? How is your family? How are your friends? How is life? 

What is hiding just beneath the surface of yourself and your life?
What are you not feeling that would rush to the surface if you would just pause? 

Some Mondays I feel aches and pains rise up. I sense a need for rest. My body begins telling me that I haven't been doing such a good job taking care of it. 

This Monday, today, I just feel slightly off. I'm having a To-Do List repeatedly flood my attention... though I know it can wait. The longer I sit with the relentless list, I recognize that just underneath it I feel some hint of failure and regret. The list wants me to shove those feelings to the side and to just get busy doing... not being.    

Other Mondays I revel in a sense of accomplishment. I'm able to sit and relax and smile and enjoy. I love those Mondays. : )

Most Mondays I just remind myself of what I value... what my sparks joy in my heart and my life. I find myself just needing to remember that which matters most to me... what I truly care about so I can set off toward that direction... my True North. 

I hope you pause this week. 
I hope you feel what's hidden, buried or been ignored.
I hope you remember what is most true of yourself. 
May you adventure inward and live toward your True North.

​Happy Monday : )

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